Breaking apart all this love in my heart ♡

new journal

2005-06-05T22:45:25Z

http://www.pixelbee.net" target="_blank"></a> NEW JOURNAL BITCHES!! I won't be updating this one any more for personal reasons. My new journal is hotpinkislove

i am not a slut.

2005-06-01T02:22:46Z

Boredum strikes again bitChes!!

Karen

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2005-05-30T01:57:39Z

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hate_eternal420 @ 2005-05-27T20:09:00

2005-05-28T01:25:37Z

Today was sucky. At the same time, it was good though. Zac decided to ditch me today, and this wouldn't be the first time it's happend so I think I'm going to break up with him. Besides, I've found a boy that I really like and likes me back. Bobby (he was supposed to graduate this year, but isn't.) He's a hottie let me tell you. That kid is so much fun to be around, and I guess he's liked me for a while but just hasn't said anything because I've always been with some other guy. But today during the whole award thing we kinda told each other about how we felt and ya, I think we're going to go out.

You know, I thought I liked Zac a lot, and when we first started going out everything was so perfect, but latley his attitude has changed so dramatically and I'm just not as comfortable around him as I used to be. I was always there for him when he needed me but he, for some reason, couldn't do the same for me.

I talked to a really good friend about this today, and he said that it's almost like Zac has no emotions whatsoever, and I totally get where he was coming from with that. It's like he could kill 12 kids and walk away not feeling anything at all. What does that make him? Careless? Numb? Or just someone trying to act tough? I don't know. It's so crazy, just how much he really doesn't care about anything.

I thought that if me and Zac broke up then I would feel bad about cheating on Zach K. with him because I thought it would seem like it wasn't even worth it and I made a huge mistake. But, oddly enough, that's not the case. It was worth it completely. I loved every second of our relationship when he wasn't so moody and seemed to really care about me and I think that that's what matters most. I know what I like in a guy and what I don't and Zac just isn't what I'm really looking for, at least not anymore. But I do find a lot of things I like in Bobby, I pretty much always have liked him ever since I met the guy. So yeah, I will let you know what happens between us once I get all this other shit taken care of. Peace out!

Kris

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-05-25T17:55:00

2005-05-25T23:24:17Z

I'M SO HAPPY!!! Omg this weekend is going to be so much fun. Graduation weekend...hells yeah!

I only hope that I won't dissapoint you...while I'm down here on my knees...

2005-05-14T15:58:12Z

Well, I suppose I should let everyone know what's going on with me. Me and Zach Kundinger are officially broken up. At first I was really upset about it but I'm the one that fucked up the relationship so I guess I shouldn't feel too surprised that he doesn't want me anymore. Besides, a lot of people agree that some of the things Zach did could very easily drive anyone away from him. Some of you don't know what I'm talking about but I know Nikki and Mandy do.
So yeah, I stayed single for about a day or two and then Zac Bruehling asked me out. So now me and him are together and so far everythings been going really good for us. I was at his house last night and we had a lot of fun. Today I'm hoping I can find a way to get to phillips to go see him and I'm pretty sure dad will take me because he was happy with me that I've brought my grades up and I was home when I was supposed to be last night.
So yeah, I've been doing good since me and Zach broke up, better than I ever would've thought I would. It's funny, sometimes life can surprise you. The things you think you can't live without can sometimes play a major part in the things that hurt you the most. I figured that out when we broke up. I know we always seemed so happy but there were so many things wrong with that relationship and evenutally we just became comfortable with that uncomfortable feeling. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. My first entry on this livejournal is when I should've called it off with Zach. If you read it, you'll understand. I could've gone about leaving him a little nicer and sometimes I hate myself for what I did to him but I know that being apart is the way that it has to be.

But I'm gunna stop here so I can call my boyfriend and see what we're doing today. Peace!

Kris

You strip away the ugliness that surrounds me

2005-05-05T18:39:15Z

I don't want to be a on break with you. You either want me or you don't. It's your choice. I love you.

It doesn't mean anything at all...

2005-05-02T14:23:29Z

It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home

And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

You take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

Sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

And I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things
I miss everything (about you)

It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room

And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

That song could describe how I feel right now. Something totally wrong is going on and I can't stop it. I feel like crying but I can't because I don't want to get mascara all over my face cause it would look weird. I just want to slowly dissappear. I can't take this anymore I'm about to break. I have therapy tomorrow (yes, therapy, *rolls eyes*) so hopefully I will be able to talk about this and get some advice. I culd really use some of that right now. Advice. Obviously I can't make it through this on my own, so yeah, I need help. I don't like going to therapy. I suppose the envirmonment is just a little bit overwhelming, seeing as how her office thing is in a church. Yuck. Anyone that knows me even the slightest bit knows that I hate religion. So yeah, it's kinda shitty. But my therapist is nice. It's a girl this time, not that it matters but I've never had a girl therapist. It's always been some dude being like "Mmmhmm mmk and how does that make you feel?" At least she isn't as boring as the other ones I've talked to. But yeah, I just feel like shit. But I'm going to stop here. Peace.
Kris

I hope to lose myself for good, I hope to find it in the end...not in me, in you....

2005-04-28T14:28:31Z

Holy fucken shit balls!! I haven't updated this in a looong time. A lot has happened sense my last entry. My brother Joey came up for a while, he's such a crack head. We didn't fight like we did last time he came up, he wasn't as much of a jackass this time, so I was happy about that. He keeps trying to get me to quit smoking. Hell no. My cigarettes are what has kept me from going completely ape shit and doing something I'd end up regreting in the near future. But yeah, he's back in rhode island now. I miss him but I'll be visiting him and my mom this summer.

Zach's moved into his apartment! YAY!!!! It was a shit hole but we fixed it up nice. I guess all the apartments there were shit holes before people fixed them up. But I'm so proud of Zach, he's finally decided to grow up and do something with his life and that makes me really happy. Me and Mandy go over there every day and clean because otherwise nothing would ever get done, and we've been decorating it and making it look perdy. AND zach has a super nintendo! That thing is the shit. We go over there and play it for hours on end after school, it's so much fun, and it's addicting. But everytime I die I get so pissed off, omg. Hahaha.

Well, bells gunna ring soon so i gotta go. Peace
Kris

We're just like those condom wrappers: used up, torn up, thrown away...

2005-04-19T03:34:40Z

Okay, I'm starting to tear up. And this is none of that fake tears shit that I could pull. This is serious. My mom is the stupidest bitch in the whole world. I can't make her stop acting the way that she does. Shit, what the fuck is wrong with her? I mean after all these years you'd think a person could move on with their life, get over the past and just fucking let go. But she won't. She is just a pathetic whore. She thinks that screwing every guy she meets is going to keep her from going insane. Which, by the looks of it, she's already pretty fucked up. And then she has the nerve to call me and tell me about how she can provide a much better life for me out in Rhode Island than in the wonderful little shit whole I'm living in now. That's some bullshit. That's like choosing between a millin fucking dollars or chopping my own fingers off one by one. The choice is so obvious. I mean, this town sucks. But I don't want to go back to a whore of a mom that barely spends any time at home because she's too busy fucking some random guy. I'd rather stay here in this hell hole with my boyfriend and my friends and a dad that cares about me, thank you very much.

Mom: You. Just. Suck.

sometimes I feel so worthless, sometimes I feel discarded...I wish that I was good enough.

2005-04-18T14:21:13Z

In The Shadow Of The Valley Of Death ~ Marilyn Manson

We have no future
heaven wasn't made for me
we burn ourselves to hell
as fast as it can be
and I wish that I could be the king
then I'd know that I am not alone

Maggots put on shirts
Sell each others shit
sometimes I feel so worthless
sometimes I feel discarded
I wish that I was good enough
then I'd know that I am not alone

Death is policeman
Death is the priest
Death is the stereo
Death is a TV
Death is the Tarot
Death is an angel and
Death is our God
killing us all

she put the seeds in me
plant this dying tree
she's a burning string
and I'm just the ashes

she put the seeds in me
plant this dying tree
she's a burning string
and I'm just the ashes

I'm so happy!!!

2005-04-14T14:31:28Z

Great day yesterday. Went to Amanda's house after school. That was fun. We saw some older chick with the word "pot" tattoo'd on her arm. She creeped us out, she had a really deep voice. Then I wen't up to Saunders to go see Zach and Beczka on their break. We decided that not this weekend but the weekend after me, zach, bob, and beczka are going to wausau to do some shopping. That should be fun. It will give Zach an opportunity to buy things for his new appartment that he is soon to be getting. I need clothes and shit too. After that I went shopping at Studio 2B and bought a new purse and a few other unmentionable things. I needed a new purse because fuckin Zac Bruehling wrote "4:20" on mine, and it just kinda ruined it. I hate when people write on my things. Grrrr it makes me angry. But yeah, I was surprised I could find some nice things in this town. I never shop in town, but I just said fuck it because it's not like I had a lot of money to go all out and shop. Then Zach picked me up at 11:00 last night and we went to his place. Like I said, I had a REALLY good day yesterday...hehehehe.

Today's going to be kinda gay though. Me, bruehling, and beczka all got detentions for leaving school during noon yesterday. It's only an hour, but it's still kinda homo. Oh well, it's nobody else's fault but my own. I have to stop being so stupid, thats all. But i'm going to go now. Peace.

Kris

I love him :)

2005-04-11T14:39:08Z

A year and four months of my life has been the best ever. Yesterday was our anniversary, so I have to talk about the one thing in my life that I love...Zach. Sometimes I feel like people don’t know what he means to me, sometimes I wonder if he even knows. He's everything that a girl would want and some have even tried to take him, but I know he'd never leave me. He's so much more than just my boyfriend, he's my best friend. He's always been there for me even before we were a couple, he knows more things about me than anyone else. He is someone that I can be myself around and not feel shy at all. He's taught me so many things without even realizing he's doing it. I know this sounds dumb to some people, but I honestly feel like I could spend the rest of my life with Zach. I can't look ahead and not see him, I couldn't stand to do that. I mean yes, we fight, but who the hell doesn't? Without fighting you wouldn't be able to build a strong relationship...at least that's what I like to think of it as. Our fights and mistakes make us even closer and right now we are as strong as ever.

So Zach, if you're reading this, I love you baby and I can't wait until we can run off to wherever we decide to go and never have to come back to our crazy families!!! I LOVE YOU!

Kris <3

I don't know how i'm supposed to feel anymore...

2005-04-07T14:40:52Z

Damn, what a fucking day. I don't think I've been bored all day, there was so much drama it wasen't even funny. Okay, so maybe some of it was funny, but still. It doesn't matter anyway, most of it isn't even my problem in the first place. Gossip is a very irritating thing, despite how surprisingly interesting I sometimes find it to be. But there's one thing on my mind, I don't really know how to explain it. It's a very akward situation. I guess I can just put it this way: There's somebody that's been bothering me lately. He won't leave me alone. I don't even know him that well. All I really know about him is that he's someone who 'tries' to be funny...but fails most of the time in his stupidity. He's sort of creeping me out, maybe it's just the way he is? I don't know. I mean, he can be a good friend and all and he's helped me through some shit, there's no doubt about that. But he's nothing more than a friend. He's well aware of the fact that I have a boyfriend...shouldn't that right there tell someone to treat me like a friend? I don't get people like that. I'm NOT a slut, I don't cheat on my boyfriend, I don't go behind his back nor do I lie or keep things from him. I am an honest person and he knows that. So it's not like Zach has anything to worry about, but I know it still bothers him and it fucking bothers me too. It isnt like I'm just standing there listening to this persons shit and not telling him when he needs to back off, I make it quite clear when he's starting to get a little bit freaky...but he just laughs it off like I'm some big joke. And if he just won't get it, what am I supposed to do then? I'm lost. If any of you guys, my uhmm...audiance *crickets chirping* have any advice, it would be much appriciated. Thanks.

Kris

I haven't been myself latley...

2005-04-06T14:31:05Z

I haven't updated in a while so I figured I'd just do this now. Last night was so awesome. Zach picked me up at 11 and we went to his house. I'm surprised my dad lets me leave that late on a school night, that rocks. But yeah, last night was just one of those things that I can't stop thinking about. And I was happy that Zach bought me cigarettes because yesterday was so lame when I ran out.

I'm in school right now though, and it's lame. Certain people that I'm forced to see everday make me want to vomit. I hate it when couples, especially a certain one, sits there and makes out with each other for the entire school to see, regaurdless of anybody that's near them. I mean yeah, I'll admit to the fact that me and Zach used to do that every once in a while, but we stopped because we realized that nobody else want's to see something like that. It's something that should happen when you and your boyfriend/girlfriend are by yourselves. Otherwise, it's just so damn annoying. It doesn't make you look better than anyone else, all it does is irritate the fuck out of people. And don't you hate it when people crowd around in the middle of a hallway where people have to get through? And they're just standing there talking, completely oblivious to how inconsiderate they're being? Don't you just wish you could do something about it? *contemplates stabbing people*...Yeah, so do I.

Kris

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-03-31T14:47:00

2005-03-31T20:49:16Z

WE'RE GOING TO OZZFEST!!!

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-03-29T14:55:00

2005-03-29T21:08:05Z

I feel really blah right about now. This weekend was awesome, I had so much fun I didn't want it to end. We finally went to see Andy this weekend, that was loads of fun let me tell ya. That kids hilarious. Omg, it was so funny, me and zach were trying to find Chase's house because thats where Andy was, and we went to the wrong house and some dude was like "wtf?" and I thought he was gunna pull out a gun and shoot or something. He must have thought I was on crack or something. Last night was pretty cool too. We went to Chris' and watched wrestling. That show is so pointless that it's intersting. But now i'm back in school and everythings turning back to shit again.

My boyfriend starts his new job today, and so does Chris. They both work at the same place, on the same shift. Second shift. I'm happy for them. It's so gay though, because I can't see Zach till friday now. Oh well I guess, I'll be fine. I'm going to hang out with Mandy after school. That should be fun, I haven't hung out with her in a while. We're going for a walk, because we feel like walking. It's nice out. It isn't cold, and the sun isn't shining. It looks like it could rain, I love it. But I have to stop here, I'm going to go talk to Bruehling. Peace.

Kris

Learn, live, cry and love...

2005-03-22T15:25:30Z

It's been a few days since I last updated, and I'm extremely bored in study hall so I figured I'd just do this now. I've been in the greatest mood lately, it's amazing. I really don't know why, everything just kind of worked itself out and now nothing else really matters anymore. I've kept busy for the last week or so, so I haven't had much time to think about anything negative...that's a good thing. Zach having his license is the shit let me tell you. The other day Chris installed his old CD player into Zach's car, it works really good. I'm so happy about that, you have no idea how fed up I was getting with the radio, omg. But yeah, life is good right about now. But I can't wait for the summer, then it will be even better. Last summer was so awesome...winter always sucks ass here. It's way too long, and way too cold, and I'm just sick of it. I miss being able to just go for long walks and think, and not have to be freezing my non-existing balls off.

I need a good walk, and a good bonfire, and Zach and some good friends. And of course some good music, and moderate amount of something else. Man, I want to go camping again. Last summer we went to solberg...that was one of the best times I've had in forever. I remember one particular night we stayed there. Me and Zach went on the beach and we sat underneath the stars and talked for a long time. It was the night he told me that he wasen't going to move to California (back when that shit was going down)because he loves me and he would miss me way too much. I'll never forget that night. Everytime I think about it, and I could be in the worst mood on the face of the earth, but it always seems to bring a smile to my face. I can't wait to go to solberg again this summer. Me and Zach are for sure going, we've talked about it enough so we have to go. We're hoping to go to Ozzfest this summer, too. That's going to be shweet. Hopefully we'll be able to, cause Zach might be getting a really good job with awesome pay within the next couple of days. He's just waiting for them to get back to him.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS WEEKEND!! This weekend is going to be the shit. We're going to Winter to see Andy for sure this time. And I get to spend the whole weekend with my boyfriend, and it's just going to rock. Today hopefully we'll be able to hang out with Sami. I called her yesterday and she said for me to call her today, but I don't think she's in school today, so I have no idea what's going on. But I have to stop here because the bell is going to ring soon. Peace.

Kris

people are gay

2005-03-20T06:36:37Z

Okay, seriously, there's a friend of mind that is really starting to get on my fucking nerves. I'm not going to say any names, but hopefully this person will be able to figure it out on their own.

YOU: Stop copying me. Seriously just fucking quit it. It's really annoying and if you continue doing it I am going to have to bitch at you. I've been nice and not said anything because you are my friend and everything, but jesus fucking christ. You used to be different back in the day, but now you've changed. Stop trying to be like me and zach. It isn't right, you don't just go around trying to be like other people, just be yourself. Seriously. Me and Zach notice it constantly and it really fucking pisses us off. That's why we havent been really hanging out with you latley. And if you keep doing it pretty soon we're just going to say fuck it and just not hang out with you at all. It's cool that you think that we're fun to be with and everything, that's fine. But you've gone to the extreme. You even talk like we do and say the things that we usually say. We are not trying to come out to be all like "Oh we're so cool" and blahdie blahdie blah, but this is the only way that it can really be said. We aren't mad at you or anything and we still want to be your friend, but I figured we'd at least put it out there and have it be said. I'm not saying who this is directed to because I don't know who all reads this and this is between me, zach, and you. It's nobody else's buisness. But I know you read this, so take a hint.

The End.

Anyways, The weekends almost over. Blah. That pretty much sucks. But this weekend has just been so cool. You have no idea. I don't think we were bored this whole weekend. We've been with chris pretty much the whole weekend. GOD DAMMIT I HATE ZACHS COMPUTER WITH A PASSION!!!!! The mouse takes forever to move and the words on the screen take forever to show up. I'm thinking I might skip school Thursday this week. It's the last day, I might as well just take it off, I don't think anything too important is going to happen in school that day anyway. I've been good about it latley though, last week I went to school everyday for the entire day. If Zach doesn't have to work I'm deffinetely not going to school. I'll just miss the bus on purpose and not tell my dad till I go back to school on tuesday. This way I'll be able to leave thursday night and not worry about it the whole weekend. I'll just tell him I didn't feel good. My dad doesn't care. He'll just be like "Ok whatever I'll write you a note," just like he always is. He doesn't give a fuck. But momentarily I'm not all behind and shit in school anymore. Well, except for in careers and independent living...but I'm not too worried about it, I'll figure out a way to pass one of these days. People in mrs. barkers class usually end up passing just for the mere fact that they're in mrs. barkers class. Some people bitch about it and are all like "Oh blah blah blah I think that we should be treated like everyone else in the school blah blah blah." Not me. I think it's sweet. It means less work for me because I'm too fuckin stupid. Nah, not really, I just hate school and don't really feel like doing anything. *lights cigarette* Let's see, is there anything else I need to talk about?

Oh yeah, Zach might be working at saunders now. He has an interveiw on monday. The funny thing is that Beczka applied for the same job, and he already had his interveiw friday. So now their both all gunna be pissed if either one of them gets it and the other one doesn't. Personally I think Zach has a better chance because he's out of school, which means he can work full time. It'd be sweet if they both got the job though. They both need a job badly.

Oh yeah, another thing, guess who was at chris' house today? Stone. Again. Blah. He changed, or something changed. It's so akward around him now, I really wish it wasn't. But there's not much we can do about that. OMG I thought I was going to go insane at toms house earlier. We stopped to see if he was there, he wasn't, and his mom decides to tell us this joke for some fucked up reason. I guess she found it funny as hell. So we're like ok lets hear it and blah blah blah. BIG MISTAKE. Holy fuckin shit. Dude, never let a drunk person tell you a joke. Especially one that's four pages long. It took her like a fuckin hour to get through it all, despite her messing it up and skipping a few parts here and there. The end of the joke was the lamest thing I've ever heard in my life. Jesus fucking christ. Me, Zach, and Beczka were like WTF. And then she's like "Oh wait, I think I told it wrong." 5843tqhriuewhtu807538!!!!

Okay, I'm done now. Peace.

this school is gay

2005-03-18T17:21:41Z

This school is GAY. I wanna go home. There's way too much drama in this school. It's a good thing that it's friday. I get to leave!!! YAY! I'm spending the weekend with my boyfriend, like usual, except this weekend we get to literally do whatever the fuck we want and go wherever we want to go because he has his license. Hehehe I'm so happy about that, you guys have no idea. I'm hoping that at some point within the weekend we will get to go to Winter to go see Andy. That would be so awesome. This weekend is going to rock. Zach is geting a CD player for his car, so we will no longer have to be stuck with listening to the fucking radio.

Yesterday was so much fun. I spent the night at Zach's house and he gave me a ride to school this morning. Last night we were watching TV at Chris' and this comercial came on for toilet paper and it had a dog being all like "yay, it's all soft and cuddly." And chewy was all like "I kinda wanna cuddle with some toilet paper now." It was funny.

Oh yeah, Zach got his car to burn out right in front of kyles house last night when we dropped him off. It was so funny. The only thing that was kind of gay about last night was the fact that Stone showed up and Chris' and he seemed really depressed for some fucked up reason. I hope it doesn't have anything to do with me...that would suck. I haven't seen him or talked to him in forever up until last night. I kind of thought he might of been mad at me so I asked him and he said that he thought that I was mad at him. I don't know, it's all fucked up. Things will never really be the same around him ever since the one night in the summer. But it's not like it bothers me anymore, I'm just saying. I should call him sometime, we used to talk just about every night in the summer. He would always call me and then he just stopped. I think it bothered Zach that he did that, because he used to say things to me that I really wish he hadn't. Creepy shit. But I'm curious to know what he's been up to for the past like, 5 or 6 months or so. I hope he's gotten past the whole thing.

But i'm going to stop here. I don't really have much of anything else to say. But I will update this sometime next week. Peace out.

Kris

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-03-17T14:54:00

2005-03-17T20:59:21Z

I broke a mirror last night and the glass shattered all over me....it was sweet. Now I have seven years of bad luck...go me. I don't really beleive in that shit, I can have bad luck all by meself without breaking anything.

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-03-16T12:27:00

2005-03-16T18:38:49Z

I AM SO SICK OF THIS FUCKING DAY! I hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I want to just dissapear altogether. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to be a different person. I want a different life. I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I wish I wasn't so fucking fat. I feel like crying, I really do. But I won't because I'm in school and everytime I cry in school I always draw way too much unwanted attention. I just want to be alone. I hate this fucking world and most of the stupid mother fucking assholes in it. I hate thinking. I hate all the thoughts that are CONSTANTLY in my god damn head. I wish I wasn't so stupid. I wish my memory wasn't competley fucked. I'm sick of pretending to be happy. I'm sick of letting people see someone who just isn't me at all. I don't want to hide myself anymore. I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!!!!!

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-03-16T11:04:00

2005-03-16T17:20:50Z

Hey guess what? I'm in Careers, like always. Yesterday zach got his license. YAY!!!!! I'm really proud of him. We had so much fun yesterday. We went to chris' house and then we hung out with sami for a while. We were so bored, the whole time we were trying to think of something to do...and zach almost killed us the way he drives. I can't wait till after school today. Zach's going to pick me up and we're going to phillips to pick up chewy. I want it to be the end of the day so bad. I'm going to sound stupid when I say this, but I miss Zach, even though I just saw him last night. I can't help it...I don't feel right when he's not with me. I don't really have much of a life when he's not around. I don't even want to be around anybody when he's not there, it's fuckin insane. I can't really explain why I feel that way, I just do. But I don't really see it as a bad thing either, I'm just saying. And I hope I don't sound annoying with me being all like "omg I love him" and whatnot, but I can't help it.

Me and Sami have got to start hanging out more often. I miss the old days, going to her house and sneaking out to her car for a smoke. I remember being scared shitless of animals that might try to attack us, so we brought fly swatters and flashlights and shit with us just incase. hahahahaha that was hilarious. But i'm going to go because I ran out of things to talk about.

andrea is incredibly fucking cool.

Kris

yay!!!!!!

2005-03-15T21:11:11Z

Zach got his license!!!

hate_eternal420 @ 2005-03-15T11:11:00

2005-03-15T17:18:34Z

MAGGI: You are a lying sack of shit. I can't believe how fucking stupid you are to make up some random story and tell people about it. Honestly, thats fucking pathetic. And if you're really concerned that fucking much: No, I have never cheated on Zach. Zach knows that I would never ever do that. It's never even been an issue with us. We're always together unless i'm at school or he's at work. Seriously. Everyday we see each other, and when he has to go home we talk on the phone. Every weekend I spend the night at his house. We pracically live together...and we like it that way. But I will tell you one thing: When Zach finds out about this petty little shit you're starting about me, he's is NOT going to be very happy with you. And trust me, you don't want to get on his bad side, cause when he's pissed off he will bitch you out. Hardcore.

So I hope your happy with yourself you little bitch. Do us all a favor (and literally, all of us) and go jump off the nearest cliff and kill yourself. Nobody would miss you, infact, we'd all probably laugh our fucking ass's off. You are a liar, and you're NOT going to get away with saying the shit you did about me you little slut. I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!!! Have a nice life, bitch.

Kris